Subject: The 3rd step
Content: Turning our life over to the care of God as we Unnerstand Him With in this step is so much work, And I though i had gone as far as anyone could by the time I had 5 years of recovery, and now at 24 year in recovery i am in a place were this step is the one i am hanging on to with every ounce of my life. I was laid off ofrm work 2 months ago, thought i would finds a job making 30.000 in no time, hopng for better but economy as it is i figure 30.K was fair, low-and-behold working on 3 months and i have not found a job, and the last one is fighting my uneployment so my bank account is desperately low. Crazy thoughts have run through my mind and i realized I was not as stable in my 3rd step as i once had been when recovery was so much a ongoing thing. I don't think about getting high or drunk any more but life still throughs me a curve from time to time and i found my self thinking of alternitive ways to make money...like before i got sober. Where is my faith that God is going to take care of me in this situation. I am ashamed to admit it. Any how I was in a meeting and the 3rd step was the topic and it hit me hard. So here i am once again letting go and lettng God.
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