Sometimes I feel like a cartoon character, walking around with the little black cloud over my head. And when I think about it, it is self induced and contrary to some of my most basic beliefs.

While I try to live in the moment and keep a high level of conscious contact with the god I understand, there are periods I go through where I procrastinate, and in doing this, I cause worry that doesn’t need to happen, yet does.

As I start up a new division of my little company, there are things I know that need to get done, things that will result in progress, and with perseverance, success. I’ve been this way before, so it is not new ground. Simply put, business does not just happen, you have to go out and do things which allow it to happen; and not get in your own way!

I am aware of these things, yet have found myself recently almost lazy. At this stage of my life, have I still got fear of failure?

I have been busy with school and other studies. I continue to study A New Earth in depth. I am active in supporting, as a sponsor, a number of people in addiction recovery, and have coached a few individuals. That being said, I spend more time than I should on computer related things that allegedly are designed to drive business. I meet, in cyber land, a number of interesting people and I learn. But I fritter away time. Ever put in a long day in the office or other pursuits, then reflect back on the day and ask yourself “what did I accomplish today that will make a difference or a dollar?” and have to answer, “Nothing”?

I recognize the procrastination that is going on, and in talking about it openly trust my higher power will help me to get out of the way and encourage me into action. As my late Dad use to tell me, “Don’t just stand there, do something!”

I coach people on setting goals and removing obstacles to allow their natural talent to meet their reasonable expectations. I have read often the statement, physician heal thy self. For me, its coach, coach yourself! I have the talent, experience and track record!

Funny, I’ve got a close friend who wrote a very good motivational book, and he tells me his greatest challenge is doing what he wrote about. So I know that what is happening to me is not unique!

It’s a new day, a day with many moments in front of me. I will make a list of some little things I will get done. I’ve already had one very good phone call in response to some initiatives I took last week. Today I will choose to have a good day, and accomplish some goals that are important and achievable. If I do this daily, the little black cloud will dissipate!

Yesterday, I gave thought to being a martyr. I cannot become a victim, I have choices to make and will make them in a mentally healthy way! I will diminish the procrastination, and not just stand here, but do something. Actions speak.

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