Thank-you,
FOLLOW-UP: To those who are on my friends list who sent their love and prayers I thank-you. For those not on my friends list who prayed thank you also. Even if you didn’t pray, thank-you too. Today, I got to use one of the lessons I learned in life many years ago and that is don’t burn your bridges. No matter how much you want to cut loose and give em’ hell, Don’t Do It!!!! You never know when you might need to backtrack. Wow, and to think of years gone by, where I would have blown it all to pieces, then woke up this morning going, “what have I done”? Easy how you can throw it all away in an instant. This is what I love about my “higher power” “His grace is sufficient for me, for truly His strength is made perfect in my weakness.” Even when I fall, my God is there to pick me up and the pieces of what is left of my life. He restores me to health, physically, mentally, and spiritually. My higher power has much greater thoughts in mind for me than I could ever imagine.
At one time in my recovery, my children were my higher power. They always had better in mind for me than I ever4 had for myself. Once I heard that you can not love someone else until you first learn to love yourself. That’s a lie, I loved my children to death, but hated myself. They knew how to forgive me when I couldn’t forgive myself. Loved me unconditionally, thought I was the greatest.
Jer 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”
I’m not as good as I once was………or should I say this, as you grow you will even learn how to answer the greatest questions ever ask. My neighbor, who truly is a nice lady heard I lost my job yesterday. I know she was being sincere, just like my Primary Care Physician was when he looked at a Pet Scan of this huge tumor I had removed last year, he exclaimed “ If I were you I’d be scared to death, I’d start to get my affairs in order” MY neighbor lady said “Oh my God, what are you going to do now, how are you going to survive?” It really came quite natural to say, “ I’m not really too awfully concerned about it, it’s up to HIM, to handle this for me. I am His child am I not?” “Sue, just keep us in your prayers and I have every confidence that He will work it out for me.” It was nice to be able to say that with ease, not straining the camel through the eye of a needle, white knuckling it all the way. I actually meant what I said. Also got a job today which helps, so again thanks for the prayers, they work! I think it was my 9 year old girls pep talk that helped the most. She informed me with her vast genius that no matter what I had to do, I needed to get work. She said in fact she would do most anything to keep our family afloat if she were a dad! LoL,LOL.
For me the words, “I’ll keep you in my prayers” is worth more than 100 Bible verses at that time in my life. I’m not saying I don’t like Bible verses, but about the worse time to hear them is when your going through. I had a Pastor friend of mine who answered everything with a verse. I wanted to choke him on more than one 
occasion. Unfortunately, zealous Christians have run folks from the faith like a stampeding herd of buffalo. That’s why we have so many that say no to our higher power as we understand Him. I’m sure if He were down here walking around on this planet, there are a few He’d like to kick right in the buttocks or sow their lips shut. I just want to take a friends advice and stay out of my own way and out of His.
Until then OldSchool777
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