Hi My Freinds, I've been listening to some of my old speaker tapes the last 3-4 nights as i was feeling defeated by the world and fighting a growing depression, these tapes were wonderful as they awakened in me some thing that I'd forgotten. See if your anything like this recovering alcoholic addict I have this disease that has a contract on my ASS, My disease is constantly out in the parking lot doing push-ups just waiting for the chance. Anyways I digress, as a result of listening to these tapes I did something I haven't done in about 2 1/2 to 3 years and that is go to a meeting . You see my clean date is December 26th 1992. After this I got counselor traing life skills coaching certificate and went to work in recovery houses, sponsored newcomers got involved in commitees from H&I to round-ups conventions running an Alano club, then funding dried up for abstinence recovery and goverment started supporting Harm reduction which if your an alcoholic or addict of my kind is the same as a serial killer only killing once a year or a wife beater saying well I only beat my wife once this month, however i continued the rest, after about almost fifteen years got a resentment and started backing off meeting and doing so much volunteering . got a new job and stated getting what I thought of as getting on with life. Actually I got caught up in life keeping up with jones in a sense lost contact with God and replaced with a new higher power materialism. So i've been getting back to basics one of the things that brought me here. wrote a blog earlier and had one very one comment that really made me sad. one poor gentlen commented that I was wrong in thinking that there was no work required in recovery, that they seemed to believe that by sitting in achair they could get recovery by osmosis, Oh my poor disillusioned brother I pray for you I have worked with too many of your type and helplessly watched your type be disillusioned and be somewhat happy for a year or 2 even five years only to see them relapse or even worse commit sucide over the pain that can bring . I've been to too many FUNERALS of a couple of suicides and too many relapse deaths of those who just wanted to use or drink one last time or didn't think the work was for them that they didn't need those "suggestions". I'm glad to be back and not letting the lies feed my disease. By the grace of God (that I don't understand) Always remember GOD does not make garbage.
&nb sp; BILL
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