I made it.
I did it.
July 25th. the day i have been dreading for at least a year has come and gone and everything is fine. I am fine. I am happy and feeling full of life! (Sounds so lame, but it's so true)
I was jsut at my friend's house playing with his son who i don't think i could love any more. And i just had such a good time.
Last night i was so worried that today I would sit in bed all day and cry and sulk and feel badly, and most importantly miss him.
Anyways, today, well actaully yesterday was July 25th. It would have been our 4 year anniversary.
And I made it through the day without a single tear or even a wistful thought.
Just two weeks ago I was sure i would want to see him and talk to him and see how he was doing on this day.
But today I did not feel the same way.
I woke up and went to work. I had a great time making pudding with the kids. I then came home and went over to my friend's house.
I enjoyed every moment of it.
I think children definitely help you to see how much there is to live for but also, once you fall as hard as i did and finally see that you CAN pick up the pieces, if you really want YOU CAN DO IT
I would have NEVER thought in a million years that there would be a july 25th that i wouldn't shed a tear on.
So thank you for your support.
I appreciate it all.
It's so important to have people who love you.
And i'm so happy now because I'm sure this time I have made a good choice. I have given myself a year to recover from the last relationship.
And this time, things are different, I am so different, he is different and nothing like the one who broke my heart.
I am beyond ready to start over.
I think today I have proven to myself that i can do it.
Ask me again tomorrow haha
goodnight =)
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