Well I can't believe I relapsed after almost 6 years clean. But then that is why I relapsed...I forgot about being powerless...forgot about meetings....barely hung on to my sponsor. I am asking all of you to PRAY for me...PRAY that I can stay clean, PRAY I keep my job. I have so much gratitude for my husband and children.

I am switching over to "In the Rooms". I hope to see you there.

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 asking for help is not my strong suit.......

I did not want to give up isolating for an hour or so just to go sit and feel completly at home, but that's how my thought process is. been in annoyed and cranky mind set for the last 6-7 months. I've started to ignore the ones who adored me adored the ones who ignored me, loved the ones who hurt me and hurt the ones who love me and even suicide has crossed my mind. my life has been shaped by my mind and I had become what I would think... Read More

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clean barring a few relapses for a whole from drinkm and drugs the sex addiction was more recent and discovered i wasnt alone as there

my name is Ian and im an alcohlic , oh and a drug addict , a sex and lovre addict did i also mention a gambling addict , which basically means i have an addictive personality and a reckless streak a mile wide !

i been clean now a while aprt from thex sex and love addiction but i discovered i not alone and found a group called  SLAA for that... Read More

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As a senior manager in the work place, self-esteem is often an issue with employees as they advance in their careers; particularly those new to management roles.

As a coach, this self-esteem is an issue I deal with with every client. I have never had an exception. It makes a guy wonder what happened along the trail, and also wonder what happened first, lousy self-esteem or addiction?

The place I always start to look is at... Read More

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I can't believe it has been over a year since I wrote a blog, or even checked my page. A lot has happened this past year and reading that blog I wrote in May of last year, it feels like a decade ago. I still feel a lot of those feelings, but I am a much different person. In February of this year, my older sister attempted suicide and ended up in the psych ward for a short stay. She was diagnosed with severe bipolar disorder and has been struggling horribly. While she was in the hospital, my y... Read More

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