Haha, well, it looks like you guys are going to hear a lot from me. I haven’t written in a journal in ages, but it seems to work, so I’m going to keep doing it. This is actually from last night, and just writing it helped me get some perspective and change my thinking just a little bit, but all of this is definitely still current, so I thought I’d post it even though I’ll be writing again soon. Here it is:

Honestly, I’m an angry person... Read More

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So, I suppose every addict has been there before. That first day of sobriety. Well, today, that is were I am.

I don't even know where to start. It's been a long time since I've been on here- it almost seems like a lifetime ago. I'm a Sex addict- at least in that I am addicted to porn and masturbation, as well as cyber sex. And it's pretty hard for me to admit that. Its hard, because for me, this has never been an addiction, but more of a bad habit. I've even called it a sin, but I've ne... Read More

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ok...so I am getting tempted to cheat once again.  I can feel the beginning of the search coming.  But I need to stop myself from searching.  I guess I would consider myself at step 2 now.....this is getting difficult....I am trying to focus in on the emotions I feel when it is just beginning....I am happy with life-I am just feeling the need...I wish I had a sponsor....Just venting, support would be appreciated.  Thank you all.

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Well well, where do I start......I have recently committed to the 12 steps, and currently I am on the first.  I know that I have a problem with Sex addiction.  I am really pissed off. I went to a therapist yesterday and after a 20 minute evaluation, she says: I think you have bipolar.....well, I know I dont have that-my moods are very stable and dont fluctuate.  I have nothing against people that have that of course, but I know that I do not.  I know I am a sex/love a... Read More

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I'm a Sex and love addict.  And I hate that label..really, really hate "addict".  So, I try to forget about it.  I tell myself I never really had a problem.  But I do, and it rears its ugly, soul numbing, horrible self!  That would be now.  I had a relapse and with this addiction, for me, that just leads to going on to the next level.  My relapse was with having phone Sex and the next thing is a desire to meet up with a man at his hotel.  The addict tel... Read More

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