Went to my step book this morning to read and study step ten .

My Hubby and I have been tangling a lot lately and I have to brush up

my daily inventory....

" Every time we are disturbed, no matter what the cause, there is something

wrong with us"  I haven't been listening well to him lately- and I certainly

have been impatient-finishing sentances and interrupting...my acceptance&

forgiveness has been lagging and I need to get to... Read More

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  Something Dennis just said- writing in his blog- brought me around a

corner,which is great! Thanks-

...Wind and ADJUSTING sails-

Back when-( pre alcohol abuse-) I spent amazing amounts of time outdoors.

There was wonder, joy, respect, awe-

   As an energetic being, often sent out/away "Go amuse yourself" the world,

from city parks, to farms, mountains, water, beaches, gardens- became play

grounds... Sometimes solit... Read More

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   Went to my home group meeting yesterday and it proved to be a great

one for lessons... Contrast of what can happen as we move along on the road

of sobriety.

   The first wonder occurred at the beginning where we give out coins on

Friday up to 18 monthes. One of our members humbly took a 24 hour coin.

   One of our younger members chaired the speaker meeting and introduced

his sponcer, who had travelled from a... Read More

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Wow.

A year has gone by...its amazing to think back just a year and remember the emotional unhealthy mess I was.  Im so busy now it took  a night fretting over exams to get up and write a blog.  I mean my concern now is EXAMS and not getting through the day sick and hung over.  The days were torture from the mind numbing blahness of it all.  God (I laugh) I remember getting all excited on a Friday night because I was going to drink margaritas until I passed out... Read More

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 Remember: desperation, driven, to put as much distance between me and the chaos of drinking and early Sobriety as possible. It meant divorce in the end...getting a sponsor, doing steps, getting active...finding an anchor in 'power greater than self ', a physical home base- rehabbing a cabin....then later on, sponsoring others...what a gift!

   Finding a new partner in the fellowship; becomming a widow( first husband)...building a homestead, (toward self sufficiency)... Read More

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