Thanks Tina. I have gotten to see more of him lately since we have discussed it a few times. My pain is driving me nuts. I took Suboxone for 6 weeks and got off of it because of the side effects. Today is day 9 without them, and I think I am still withdrawing because I haven't slept a night yet:(
It's 8am right now, and I haven't even been to bed! My legs and arms, but especially legs at the moment, feel as if they are in a vice. I have heard this is normal from opiate withdrawl but doggone it! For some reason I didn't think this would happen since the doctor who prescribed it to me for pain is also in recovery.
It didn't make me high, but gave me all the horrific side effects of an opiate. I had no idea what I was getting myself into. Now I am taking nothing, and don't know which step to take next. Thanks for letting me vebt, apparently I needed to somewhere
lots o love
jessie
Godluvsall wrote:
Excited about your new ventures! Time with your sweetie will work it's self out:)
Hey Tina, i'm okay today thanks for asking:) Went to orientation in Detroit today for Grad School! Which I start next week! Pretty unbelievable, totally 9th step promise I blelieve bad spelling right now because i am typing fast and don't care enough to go back lol! Things with my Beloved mate of my soul are good, though I wish we had more time together, but when he is around, we're often not able to do too much due to my horrible pains all the time Pushing through that though, and praying for and counting on a brighter day....
Just hang in there. You will make it, when you heal, things will get better. They sure have for me! It will happen for you. It took a full 2 years to just get over the horrible fact of being divorced and moving on. Even at 5 years divorced, I still have issues, but it's better.
HANG IN THERE!
Thanks Tina. I know it will take time. I thought I would actually be happy it is over, and at first I was a little sad but glad it was over and now that it has sunk in a bit, I am not feeling so great. It is like being hurt all over again. I dont know what to do with what I feel, I cant even figure out what I am feeling. But thanks for listening to me ramble....Love ya
YES, it's very slow here now. Not sure why. But I do check in and still try to help.
How are you? Hope all is well.
Sending love and hugs, Tina
Well it is up and down. The divorce is final. There are alot of issues with my kids and problems at work, normal stress stuff but, it is just all the other stuff piled on all that stuff that is just too much. Although I am reading my book, and trying to meditate and pray more I am just feeling...I am not sure. Alot of emotional issues have come to the surface. I am really struggling to stay sober, and it feels like I am fighting to make it through the day. But I am making it, so I guess every day I wake up and dont give up is a good day.
Pretty unbelievable, totally 9th step promise I blelieve
bad spelling right now because i am typing fast and don't care enough to go back lol! Things with my Beloved mate of my soul are good, though I wish we had more time together, but when he is around, we're often not able to do too much due to my horrible pains all the time
Pushing through that though, and praying for and counting on a brighter day....
